I rarely write blog posts on here because I don't want to over-saturate myself. If you want more updates and posts, you can follow our Facebook and Instagram accounts. Over-saturation is also the reason why I upload episodes bi-weekly instead of weekly. I think it's a nice balance considering how lengthy some of the episodes tend to be.
I'll admit, the show stresses me out a lot...BUT it also provides me with a lot of pride, satisfaction, and love. Yet another balancing act. I guess life in general is just one giant balancing act. I fall less now and keep balance a little more regularly than I used to. The legs and knees are still wobbly most of the time and I have to leave my arms out to help the ol' equilibrium but I stay upright a good amount of the time. I'm more aware than ever though of how quickly I could lose myself to myself and fall face first onto the cold, hard ground.
There are many reasons that can be attributed to my current stability: My relationship with my girlfriend, friends, family, a decent paying job, healthy hobbies, etc. I've also been slightly less hard on myself. Don't get me wrong, I still metaphorically punch myself in the face on a daily basis but I guess the punches are a little softer and a little less frequent. What is happening to me? Am I on my way to more happiness and personal acceptance? The fact that I can say that I think I've earned a little more happiness is new and strange to me. I like it though.
This show is the other reason I left out. This show has already done a lot for me and brought me closer to a lot of people. The original idea was to interview a group of people, put it out there and see how it goes. I wanted to know if I'd truly enjoy it and my first goal (besides getting my shit together and starting the show) was to reach someone. I wanted someone to listen to an episode and not feel alone. I wanted myself or the guest to talk about topics that made people think, look inward, feel better, smile, tear up, want to engage....all sorts of things. It happened. I've achieved that goal repeatedly. Every time someone comes up to me and compliments the show or tells me about a specific episode they related to, it feels like I'm just hearing that for the first time. It's an amazing feeling. I'm terrible at taking compliments and tend to have trouble making eye contact with the human delivering said compliments but it stays with me. I appreciate it more than I can articulate. Guests have even left their interviews with a different perspective on themselves and the world around them. That's what sitting down and talking with another human can do.
We've reached some additional goals as well... We surpassed the 500 download mark and we have listeners in 8 countries. What?! I mean...I want more. I'll always want more and have no idea when or if anything could truly be enough BUT.....that's not too shabby for a show with literally no clout. Nobody knows who I am, I don't interview famous people, I have no sponsors. I'd be open to all of those things but I'm very proud of what we've been able to accomplish without them. I have all of you to thank. Your support has been outstanding. My guests are so generous with their time, thoughts and emotions. I'm proud of them for putting themselves out there for 500 people in 8 countries to listen to. I'm just grateful to everybody and everything right now.
We're not done yet though. Solid growth can be a motherfucker. No, this is not the moment in a post where I start asking for money. I don't want your money. Well, I take that back...I'll gladly take money. Or records. Or Jerky. Or Champagne. Oooh, I'll also take Domino's. I want Domino's to be my first sponsor and I'll continue mentioning them until I attain that. Either sponsorship or free pizza...doesn't matter. Anyway, I digress (as usual). I need help in spreading the word even more. Please. Comment on things, share posts and episodes, leave reviews, subscribe, etc. If you enjoy the show, please share it. I finally looked at some stats so I know you're out there. My guests and I give you free entertainment. It's always going to be debatable whether the entertainment is quality or not BUT you seem to want to keep listening and I seem to want to keep doing this so.... let's get even more people involved.
I love you all. Thanks for reading and listening to me. It's hard for me to figure out why you do but you're there so thank you. I do all of this out of love and curiosity. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
One last thing: Be nice to each other.
Your gracious host,