As the year comes to an end, most of us usually take time to reflect on our lives. It's in my nature to think of all the terrible news, human losses and tragedies first, then barely reflect on the positive aspects of the year...Not this time. I have to admit that personally, I had a pretty good year. You have to understand how hard that is for me to say or type. I'd like to consider myself an informed and empathetic human being so everything that has happened in the world this past year, caused me great sadness, panic, fear and anxiety. BUT my personal world filled me with great happiness and a feeling of accomplishment. Again, I'm not used to admitting or allowing these feelings to exist inside myself. I've been working on 'me' for years and am very proud of the progress I've made and the fact I've been able to allow myself to feel loved and feel these positive feelings. I still have a lot of work to do and ground to cover which leads me to this..... I DID A THING!
I took a personal leap and created something. Something I'm proud of. I shared this thing with other humans and a lot of them who decided to check it out seemed to actually enjoy it and come back for more. This podcast means a lot to me. I've gained new friends and gotten closer to old friends through this. It's challenged me physically, mentally and emotionally and I feel better for it. I'm not done though as I realize I still have a long way to go. The show is evolving. I have a decent amount of conversations in the can and ready to release featuring friends, family and acquaintances but now I'm starting the process of branching out to recording conversations with complete strangers. Things are coming together. Some of it was expected, some of it has been completely unexpected. You know what though......I love it!
I also took a personal leap in the summer of 2015 and moved to Chicago for a lady. That lady gave me one of the most amazing, interesting, stressful, educational, affectionate and loving years I've ever had in my existence. 2016 was great for us. I have a lot of fear and anxiety around 2017 in regards to the country I live in and the world outside of it but alas, I have no fear and only little anxiety in the world that Lindsay and I call home. I will always have anxiety.....trust me...saying I only have 'little anxiety' about a relationship is a phenomenal statement for me. That's just one of an infinite number of reasons I have to feel so excited about my future with this wonderful lady.
With all of this and even more that I don't have time to go into, I feel like I finally decided to climb my own personal Mount Everest. For years I've been at the bottom looking up...dreaming of making an attempt but never taking a step. But, I finally started and now I think I've reached....Base Camp. And that's not bad at all. Base Camp is cool! I have a long way to go to reach the summit but I feel as though I've already made it further than I expected and further than some others have been able to reach in their own personal journeys. I'm hanging out at Base Camp right now and having a blast. I have a little while longer to hang but I know 2017 will see me packing back up and starting my ascent again. I can't see the top through the clouds and all of the work I have yet to do but I hope to see it in the future. Is this too corny? It's starting to feel like it. I dunno, it's how I truly feel. Plus, I have this sweet pic at the end of this post to really tie the metaphor together. Haha.
Anyway, thanks for all of the support. To those who have shared themselves for my show...I can't thank you enough. I literally wouldn't have this show without you. I mean I COULD have done it by myself but it would've been a disaster. I love having these conversations with people and I love even more that they're documented. I'll be able to listen when I'm older and judge myself and appreciate others for sharing a chunk of themselves with me. To those who have listened....I can't thank you enough either. You've solidified my choice to keep going with it. I know we're only 5 episodes in but that's a lot for a guy who took a long time to even start. We have a lot of cool episodes lined up for you this coming year and even more I have yet to record. I'm so excited and I hope you are too. Thanks again and I hope we can have Mouth to Mouth together for years to come!
Your humble host,
PS - Thanks to everybody at Maxcat Productions for the insane advertising campaign! Look where we've gone!