Stats and Love

Hi everybody,

I rarely write blog posts on here because I don't want to over-saturate myself. If you want more updates and posts, you can follow our Facebook and Instagram accounts. Over-saturation is also the reason why I upload episodes bi-weekly instead of weekly. I think it's a nice balance considering how lengthy some of the episodes tend to be.

I'll admit, the show stresses me out a lot...BUT it also provides me with a lot of pride, satisfaction, and love. Yet another balancing act. I guess life in general is just one giant balancing act. I fall less now and keep balance a little more regularly than I used to. The legs and knees are still wobbly most of the time and I have to leave my arms out to help the ol' equilibrium but I stay upright a good amount of the time. I'm more aware than ever though of how quickly I could lose myself to myself and fall face first onto the cold, hard ground.

There are many reasons that can be attributed to my current stability: My relationship with my girlfriend, friends, family, a decent paying job, healthy hobbies, etc. I've also been slightly less hard on myself. Don't get me wrong, I still metaphorically punch myself in the face on a daily basis but I guess the punches are a little softer and a little less frequent. What is happening to me? Am I on my way to more happiness and personal acceptance? The fact that I can say that I think I've earned a little more happiness is new and strange to me. I like it though.

This show is the other reason I left out. This show has already done a lot for me and brought me closer to a lot of people. The original idea was to interview a group of people, put it out there and see how it goes. I wanted to know if I'd truly enjoy it and my first goal (besides getting my shit together and starting the show) was to reach someone. I wanted someone to listen to an episode and not feel alone. I wanted myself or the guest to talk about topics that made people think, look inward, feel better, smile, tear up, want to engage....all sorts of things. It happened. I've achieved that goal repeatedly. Every time someone comes up to me and compliments the show or tells me about a specific episode they related to, it feels like I'm just hearing that for the first time. It's an amazing feeling. I'm terrible at taking compliments and tend to have trouble making eye contact with the human delivering said compliments but it stays with me. I appreciate it more than I can articulate. Guests have even left their interviews with a different perspective on themselves and the world around them. That's what sitting down and talking with another human can do.

We've reached some additional goals as well... We surpassed the 500 download mark and we have listeners in 8 countries. What?! I mean...I want more. I'll always want more and have no idea when or if anything could truly be enough BUT.....that's not too shabby for a show with literally no clout. Nobody knows who I am, I don't interview famous people, I have no sponsors. I'd be open to all of those things but I'm very proud of what we've been able to accomplish without them. I have all of you to thank. Your support has been outstanding. My guests are so generous with their time, thoughts and emotions. I'm proud of them for putting themselves out there for 500 people in 8 countries to listen to. I'm just grateful to everybody and everything right now.

We're not done yet though. Solid growth can be a motherfucker. No, this is not the moment in a post where I start asking for money. I don't want your money. Well, I take that back...I'll gladly take money. Or records. Or Jerky. Or Champagne. Oooh, I'll also take Domino's. I want Domino's to be my first sponsor and I'll continue mentioning them until I attain that. Either sponsorship or free pizza...doesn't matter. Anyway, I digress (as usual). I need help in spreading the word even more. Please. Comment on things, share posts and episodes, leave reviews, subscribe, etc. If you enjoy the show, please share it. I finally looked at some stats so I know you're out there. My guests and I give you free entertainment. It's always going to be debatable whether the entertainment is quality or not BUT you seem to want to keep listening and I seem to want to keep doing this so.... let's get even more people involved.

I love you all. Thanks for reading and listening to me. It's hard for me to figure out why you do but you're there so thank you. I do all of this out of love and curiosity. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

One last thing:  Be nice to each other.

Your gracious host,

Tim

End of year personal inventory....."Base Camp"

     As the year comes to an end, most of us usually take time to reflect on our lives. It's in my nature to think of all the terrible news, human losses and tragedies first, then barely reflect on the positive aspects of the year...Not this time. I have to admit that personally, I had a pretty good year. You have to understand how hard that is for me to say or type. I'd like to consider myself an informed and empathetic human being so everything that has happened in the world this past year, caused me great sadness, panic, fear and anxiety. BUT my personal world filled me with great happiness and a feeling of accomplishment. Again, I'm not used to admitting or allowing these feelings to exist inside myself. I've been working on 'me' for years and am very proud of the progress I've made and the fact I've been able to allow myself to feel loved and feel these positive feelings. I still have a lot of work to do and ground to cover which leads me to this..... I DID A THING!

     I took a personal leap and created something. Something I'm proud of. I shared this thing with other humans and a lot of them who decided to check it out seemed to actually enjoy it and come back for more. This podcast means a lot to me. I've gained new friends and gotten closer to old friends through this. It's challenged me physically, mentally and emotionally and I feel better for it. I'm not done though as I realize I still have a long way to go. The show is evolving. I have a decent amount of conversations in the can and ready to release featuring friends, family and acquaintances but now I'm starting the process of branching out to recording conversations with complete strangers. Things are coming together. Some of it was expected, some of it has been completely unexpected. You know what though......I love it!

     I also took a personal leap in the summer of 2015 and moved to Chicago for a lady. That lady gave me one of the most amazing, interesting, stressful, educational, affectionate and loving years I've ever had in my existence. 2016 was great for us. I have a lot of fear and anxiety around 2017 in regards to the country I live in and the world outside of it but alas, I have no fear and only little anxiety in the world that Lindsay and I call home. I will always have anxiety.....trust me...saying I only have 'little anxiety' about a relationship is a phenomenal statement for me. That's just one of an infinite number of reasons I have to feel so excited about my future with this wonderful lady.

     With all of this and even more that I don't have time to go into, I feel like I finally decided to climb my own personal Mount Everest. For years I've been at the bottom looking up...dreaming of making an attempt but never taking a step. But, I finally started and now I think I've reached....Base Camp. And that's not bad at all. Base Camp is cool! I have a long way to go to reach the summit but I feel as though I've already made it further than I expected and further than some others have been able to reach in their own personal journeys. I'm hanging out at Base Camp right now and having a blast. I have a little while longer to hang but I know 2017 will see me packing back up and starting my ascent again. I can't see the top through the clouds and all of the work I have yet to do but I hope to see it in the future. Is this too corny? It's starting to feel like it. I dunno, it's how I truly feel. Plus, I have this sweet pic at the end of this post to really tie the metaphor together. Haha.

     Anyway, thanks for all of the support. To those who have shared themselves for my show...I can't thank you enough. I literally wouldn't have this show without you. I mean I COULD have done it by myself but it would've been a disaster. I love having these conversations with people and I love even more that they're documented. I'll be able to listen when I'm older and judge myself and appreciate others for sharing a chunk of themselves with me. To those who have listened....I can't thank you enough either. You've solidified my choice to keep going with it. I know we're only 5 episodes in but that's a lot for a guy who took a long time to even start. We have a lot of cool episodes lined up for you this coming year and even more I have yet to record. I'm so excited and I hope you are too. Thanks again and I hope we can have Mouth to Mouth together for years to come!

Your humble host,

Tim

PS - Thanks to everybody at Maxcat Productions for the insane advertising campaign! Look where we've gone!